Hello, and welcome back to the blog. It’s been a while since I’ve written- far longer than I intended. I guess I just haven’t known what to say. My baby is now almost 9 weeks old and while he keeps me very busy, I still think about and miss horses, riding and writing on my blog. Every. Single. Day. It’s not even just about missing horses; it’s about missing the rhythm, a part of my identity and the freedom I used to have.
For the past few months since giving up my young horse and having my baby, I have felt guilty for feeling what is some kind of grief. It felt selfish to wish for my old lifestyle when I have this beautiful baby that I always dreamed of. I have come to realise though that I can adore my baby and love being a mum, while still feeling loss and grief for my old lifestyle. It’s been somewhat of a revelation that these feelings can co-exist.
🖋 Getting back to writing
I have sat and pondered what else I could do with my time. I have thought about trying my hand at art, gardening, scrapbooking and while these things can be fun now and again, I don’t crave them and they don’t really fill my cup. Equestrianism was my lifestyle and because horses are so time consuming, I have never really had time for other things.
Writing is something I have always done, however, whether that be through keeping a journal or through blogging. It helps me to process things and to look back on different seasons of life.
So, though I can’t post updates on my journey like I used to, I can still write. It just takes a little more creative thought to come up with a topic and some wishful thinking that nap time is going to extend beyond thirty minutes!
🗓 My Writing Plan
Therefore, though I am not riding, training or owning a horse right now, I still want to write. I want to give myself some semblance of structure and purpose outside of being a stay at home mum/ wife. The topics that I am most interested in writing about and what to expect are:
- A New take on The Monthly Muster (horseless version)
- Equine behaviour
- Groundwork training exercises
- Relationship building
- Reviews of any books, media or products I have loved either now or in the past
So, here’s to getting back into writing and back into horses in some way, even if I am the only person to read this, at least I will feel like there’s something there for me to hold onto.
Happy horsing (from the sidelines)
BBequines 